I started to do some self reflection. It's so easy to get caught up in the day to day frustrations and complications of life. For me, a huge part of that for so long was struggling to become a mother. It was a huge part of my life for so long. And, one that I still struggle to come to terms with each day. I tend to let myself think that I don't take motherhood for granted after that struggle. But, on the hard days, when H just won't quit fussing or I'm cleaning spit up off myself for the millionth time, it's so easy to give into the frustration. But, this week, I have been very aware of just how lucky I am.
I am so lucky that I got to have my baby. So many women still struggle to have their child. Some, like my friend, don't get to take their baby home. Sure, I had to work really hard and go through more than I would have liked to have him. But, I did. And he's perfect and smart and healthy and funny and pretty much the cutest thing I have ever seen in my entire life. I am lucky that I have a husband who I love and who loves me. He is an amazing father to our son. Do we have our issues? Sure. Who doesn't? But, we're happy. We have a good, no great, life together. Sure, we could have more money or a bigger house or better cars or whatever. But, we have a good life.
So, today I am thankful for all that I have. I will try to remember my thankfulness when I get frustrated that H won't stop crying or when B leaves his shoes laying around. I will try to hold onto it when I feel stressed about money or the house or my job. I will remember that I am so incredibly blessed.